16 weeks!

I am 16 weeks pregnant now. I thought I would have more of a cute little baby belly by now but it's still more of a fatty belly. I shouldn't complain, I still fit in my size 6 on most days although they are starting to get a bit uncomfortable. The thing that has gotten bigger, my boobs! I wish I had these things all the time!

So we told our family after my 9 week appointment which was nice because it was my moms birthday in which she said "i didn't think you were ever going to have a baby!" Ok, ok. I get it. I took my time. Haha.the rest of our families were thrilled but the best part was telling Darby! We told her on our drive up north for camping. I have attached the video. Haha 

After my 13 week appt. we announced it to everyone and u can't believe how many people liked or commented on my Facebook post! Who knew a baby would bring THAT much happiness from so many different people. 

9 weeks - That heartbeat ROCKS!

I am 9 weeks today and had my ultra sound. That perfect little heartbeat rocked my world today! VERY happy tears started streaming down my face as soon as I saw it! I could have had a full out breakdown but every time I took a big breath/cry I couldn't see my little baby so I tried to calm down. I could see a little leg and arm.....holy what a wonderful wonderful feeling and sight. Mitch is pumped. :) I finally told my sisters, mom, and dad. It's my mom's birthday so thankfully my sister Nichole went to her house and "Face timed" me so I could tell her face to face and see her reaction. Which was a stunned look, followed by crying and asking me repeatedly if I was serious, and then with a "I didn't think you were ever going to." LOL I know. I get it. I waited a while. haha I traded in my "What To Expect" Book that I had just bought since my sister Tiffany already has it along with a few others and opted for a more casual and funny book called "The Girlfriends Guide To Pregnancy." I read reviews online and people were saying how the "What to Expect" book gave a lot of what if's and bad situations. I figured that's probably not the 1st book I need to read since I already fret a ton! No really change with anything else. I am dying to tell Darby! She had her GirlScout banquet tonight and I wanted to tell her so bad or show her the pictures but I really wanted tonight to be about HER! She's so awesome. So hopefully I can tell her soon. I will have to talk to daddy and see because when you tell a 6yr old something.....it's pretty much not a secret anymore although she does seem to do a very good job with things like Christmas presents. We'll see. So here is the 1st glimpse of baby Donar! :)

8 weeks

I am 8 weeks today. Wooo. People ask if I'm tired or hungry and I just wonder if they know me! I am always tired and I am always hungry, so I wouldn't say that its increased since I am pregnant. I had some slight nausea for about 3 days which consisted of me feeling like I could throw up, but knew the entire time that I really wouldn't. I'm not a puker at all. So that sucked. The only 2 symptoms I can confirm are that my boobs hurt (aren't you so happy you know that?! ugh) and that I am super emotional which really sucks because I am a pretty emotional person anyway. I think I came home every day last week saying how I wanted to cry because I either didn't feel well or I was tired. Sunday was the kicker though. Mitch and I were driving home from grocery shopping, so maybe I will actually eat healthy again, anyway, I told him I was hungry like I always do (usually multiple times) but then I thought I was going to cry because I was so hungry. I thought to myself "are you serious Tarsha?! You're going to friggin CRY because you're HUNGRY?!" Ugh. Anyway I hope that emotional overload goes away soon. In 1 week I get to hear the heartbeat (hopefully) for the first time! What a relief it will be to make it over this hump. I've actually told more people this time around although Mitch doesn't know that yet. Surprise hunny! I figured I would try and put more pressure on this baby so it would stick around. And the thing is, I'm usually GREAT at keeping secrets, but I am just so happy and want to tell everyone! I feel like I have "popped" already but I know it's just me or the fact that I had Taco Bell twice this weekend! Ewww who am I?! Anyway I am sure it has to do with my stellar diet lately and not running or really working out. I'll say it, I'm a head case when it comes to this shit. I over think anything and everything you can think of! But I think I will actually start working out again slightly because I am already freaked out about getting fat. I did lose all that weight pretty much so I could get pregnant, you know because I didn't want to be fat (for me) and then get fatter. Anyway, so that's my update for this week.

First Comes Love, Then Comes Marriage, Then Comes.....

I am 6 weeks pregnant and very excited...and surprise surprise very nervous. Since I barely dare to walk I think I have only ran once since I found out. I feel like I'm an apple tree and if I run it's going to shake little "lentil bean" free. mmm I know it won't happen but I am scared to death to lose this little bugger. See, back story to this...we had a miscarriage in February and it kind of shattered me for a little bit. Darby had been bugging us, more specifically me for a baby, and preferably a baby sister. She asked for one for Christmas but no luck, but little did she know it was made on Christmas! Overshare? Sorry. Anyway, we went for my 9 week appointment but there was no heartbeat and the baby was only measuring at 6 weeks. :( Broke my heart! I had no clue and the thought had never crossed my mind. I never thought something so small and that I had never met before could break my heart so bad, but I loved that little baby from the start.  I cursed every person that got pregnant without even trying, had an abortion or any high schooler that accidentally got pregnant.  I did everything "right" that I am supposed to. I waited until I was married, settled, and ready for a baby. Took prenatal vitamins and I didn't drink an ounce of coffee after I found out. I did everything I was supposed to! It was just very unfair and heartbreaking, but I guess that's life. Everything happens for a reason right? I have always believed that; that God has a plan, but it was really hard to comprehend this time. I'm a pretty private person, though this blog may suggest otherwise, so I didn't tell anyone at the time. I needed to get through this and figure out what was going on with me. Wrap my head and heart around it. I didn't want people asking me how I was all the time. I hate that shit. When I was ready to talk about it I would. Anyway, here we are again and I am hoping little baby wants to stick around this time. Mitch is skeptical, which I get after last time, but excited none-the-less. So at exactly 6 weeks, 2 days after a nice 4 mile run I started spotting and the onset of EXTREME worrying set in since that's when baby #1 peaced out before. An ultrasound and 2 things of blood-work later I am happy to report that I am on the path to a healthy pregnancy. *phew!* Deep down I have known that I wanted a baby I am just naturally nervous and scared of what it will entail and what kind of mom I will be to someone full-time. I tear up every time I think of holding my baby or last night listening to Carrie Underwood's 'Jesus Take The Wheel' when she says "She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock." I can't wait to look in my backseat and see my little baby! Okay. To wrap this up I am unofficially due January 28th, 2014. So hopefully I make it through Regionals and possibly States before baby Donar arrives.....because you know that's my cheering season. haha So there it is! Yey!